The Reinvention of Cake

Valetine’s Day Reflections

By

Berry Michel

So, it’s Valentine’s Day and this is the first time in a while that I haven’t had to buy chocolate and roses. This year I am legitimately single. No wife, girlfriend, or any other complicated kind of situation. I must admit it’s a bit lonely but it’s peaceful. So, this is what it feels like to be drama free. I should have tried this more often earlier in life.

As I reflect on my relationships over the years with women, I see now that I often put myself in relationships so I wouldn’t have moments like these. Moments alone. Even though I think I’m quite introverted at times, I always hated being alone. For a person like me whose mind never shuts off or stops wondering, being alone can sometime be downright scary. Who wants to be alone with these thoughts. I scare myself sometimes.

But, in my older years, okay let’s make that wiser years, I’m learning to appreciate peace. Yes, being lonely is still scary, but I also get some time to think and reflect. Just slow down and breathe. Maybe my relationships didn’t work out because I was never really that comfortable with me. If you think about, it’s probably difficult to be with someone else if you are not at peace with yourself. So, note to self, let’s work on me first before diving into that next relationship. So, this Valetine’s Day, I’m celebrating my singleness, drama freeness, and involuntary celibacy. I would like to say I have grown but the celibacy thing. Really? God must have a plan.